IDS TO KIDS SUPPORT GROUP
Loss just loss, A recognition of the absence of Lois, a new void created that can not be filled.
If only there was anything that I could have done to stop your death. I you had opened up to me and tell how you really felt about how people have hurt you in life, I would have helped.
If you had not gone to where death awaited for your coming you would have been alive now. You would have been my hyperactive, fun loving and slightly over protective Dad you were. I pray night and day to see you soon. Your death is almost like it had happened just yesterday and it is almost as if it is nonexistent. I miss and love you very dearly.
DEAR DADDY, I'M JUST WRITING THIS TO LET YOU KNOW ABOUT WHAT HAS BEEN HAPPENING SINCE YOU LEFT. PERIODICALLY, I GO THROUGH A STATE OF DEPRESSION,BUT I GET OVER IT. MOTHER, AS I NOW REFER TO HER, SPENDS A HALF OF THE YEAR GETTING MONEY TO SEND US TO SCHOOL. THAT IS BECAUSESHE SOLD YOUR BUSINESSES.OH WELL. I MISS YOU A LOT. SOMETIMES I JUST SIT AND THINK ABOUT WHAT WOULD HAVE AND WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN. MY WHOLE LIFE HAS CHANGED. SOMETIMES I THINK THAT I AM THE ONLY ONE THAT REMEMBERS YOU.THAT'S NOT TRUE, BUT ITHINK ABOUT YOU A LOT.ANYWAY, I LOVE YOU, FOREVER WILL .
I really don't know what to write except that I really miss you. I don't think you had to die. I know now that I kind of took your presence for granted, cause now when my friends speak of their fathers I sort of feel left, as all I have now is memories of what you were like. Sometimes I wish you were there with us, as now the house is really lonely and quiet without you. I really don't know what else to write, so buy, I miss you.
I am August, and I was in the same situation you are in when I was 9 years old. My advice to you is : hang in there, cry as much as you want to and do anything you want to do. Even if it means wearing your daddy's shirt. As long as it makes you feel better. Please let your mommy read this. Hope you will feel better soon.
Your sister in grief, August. en you did. I'll always love you any way
Love you always.